Chaos To Calmness

Seven years ago ... I crashed and washed ashore on the banks of sobriety. That was the beginning of the end of my chaotic life or the storm of my life was ready to calm itself. When I was growing up, when I thought of an alcoholic, I thought of some toothless old guy in a trench coat in a basement somewhere. I just never thought that would apply to me. That type of stigma kept me from getting the help that I needed when I knew I needed it. I have always been transparent about my journey with addiction. What I've learned is that this illness is not something that disappears or fades with time, It is something I must continue to overcome and have not done yet, its a 24 hour day of survival with sobriety, but it's getting easier each hour, each day and each year. Some people ask. ``When are you going to be able to have a drink again?' And my answer to that is, 'I've already drank all the drinks that I was supposed to drink in one lifetime. I don't know if I was born an alcoholic, but I was definitely born anxious. The alcoholism came to me early in life, after a few years of drinking to ease stress and worry, and to fend off panic. I will say this, being in recovery has given me everything of value that I have in my life. I now have Integrity, honesty, fearlessness, faith, a relationship with God, and most of all gratitude. IGod has given me a beautiful wife and an amazing passion to help others. I'm under no illusion where I would be without the gift of alcoholism and the chance to recover from it. If you're reading my memoir you are either living a life of chaos or your life is so calm that you have no idea of what chaos is. Maybe you are a fan of mine and enjoyed all my other books. Either way, let my chaos throughout the years show you how I have been able to stay so calm, so positive and so compassionate. There are many situations of my past that caused chaos and how I mostly created my own chaotic life that most people would scratch their head and say why?"Why would a person be so self destructive? Why would a person let themselves wander so far off course? Well friends, I can't pinpoint the problem exactly, but here are the 2 major things that played a role. The disease of alcoholism had a hold on me. The lack of God in my life played a crucial part. Get a coffee or tea, sit back and read how I went from a chaotic life to calm life with God's guidance and direction.