Call It What You Want

I never expected to love a man. I was just trying to return my ex-girlfriend's dog to her after she dumped me for... well, it's a long story. I ended up getting a massage from her former masseur. Then something really weird happened. I never felt like that before. Not about a man, not about anybody. Why can't I stop thinking about Alan: his reassuring voice, his salt-and-pepper stubble, and how I feel when his hands have the run of my body?I didn't think I was gay, but Alan is amazing. I've never met anyone so caring. And he's great with that stupid English bulldog that my ex-girlfriend dumped on me. Maybe I'm just lonely and deluding myself. Or maybe I really am falling in love with a man. I'm not going to be anybody's plaything. Not again."Straight" guys. I've learned to stay away from them. They get horny and say all the right things, but once the guilt hits, they cut and run. I thought it was going to be different with that smooth-talking helicopter pilot, Josh. It wasn't. Serves me right for thinking a guy twenty years younger than me would ever see me as more than a diversion. I don't need any more hurt in my life. But sometimes I let myself wonder for just a moment about me and Josh. Call It What You Want is a 32,000-word feel-good romance of a younger man discovering his true self in experienced hands. May contain a wet-nosed English bulldog, a case of beginner's luck, several bacon cheeseburgers, and one very adoptable ten-year-old boy.